As all you moms out there know, there’s nothing like being a mom! The ups and downs of it all are incredible, unbeatable, amazing, hilarious, emotional and sometimes even unbarable! The crazy everyday life of a mom is everything I ever expected and so much more.
I cannot imagine my life without my two girls! They make my life complete. They never cease to amaze me. They find joy in the littlest of things. I think this is the most amazing thing about children. I wish adults could enjoy life as much as children. I wish we could all learn to relax and enjoy the simple things and each other more. The world would be a much better place if we all loved and enjoyed life like children! I know, through them, I have learned to take one day at a time and not take myself too seriously.
I always wanted four kids. My reasoning is crazy, I know, but this is why… Growing up with only one sister, I always wanted the experience of a bigger family. Two is just not enough, three and there’s always someone left out, so there must be four! As a tom-boy in my younger days, I always wanted a brother to play in the mud with and climb trees with. I also always wanted to give my girls a brother and Darren a son.
Unfortunately, within the last year with my illness, we’ve decided to be done having children. I know I couldn’t handle the long nights, the never-ending days and the physical toll it would put on my body during and after pregnancy. The more time that passes, the more I am ok with it. It’s sad to think that I’ll never have another life inside me or that I’ll never get that “baby phase” back again, but I see the girls grow before my eyes and am getting to enjoy the other phases just as much… for the most part! LOL!
I see my life grow as they do. The older they get, the more my life can become it’s own again. Don’t get me wrong, the life of a mom is great, but I also miss the life of being a wife, a friend, a daughter, a sister… a woman! I know with more kids, this would have to wait a little longer. I would absolutely be willing to put all that on hold for more children, but it’s also nice to see it all slowly come back.